I want to say thank you to everyone that reached out to me after my post about depression. Thank you for your emails, your concern, and for checking on me to make sure I am okay. I think it's pretty wonderful that strangers took time out of their lives to make sure I was okay. So thank you from the bottom of my heart.
For years I've played it safe having jobs that had little to do with what I want to do in the future. Last summer I had the wonderful opportunity of being a biological intern for the state, and I loved it. I was so happy. I spent a ton of time hiking outside and watching early morning sunrises (my shift was from 5 AM to 1 PM). That job convinced me that I could never sit at a desk again.
Then, I got a job where I was working outside in gardens with kids. I was so happy. So excited. But suddenly I got to see the political side of the organization I was working for and it made me really sad. It was very full of political nonsense and who you know, not what you know. I soon had to sit behind a desk more and more, and felt my soul slowly dying.
So I made the biggest decision in my life so far. I did something for myself and left. I understood the financial safety of having a steady job, but I cannot be cooped up and told how to think for that long. I also cannot continue to put what I am passionate about second in my life.
I am now (officially) the lead skeleton articulator and European mount specialist at the Taxidermy shop I am apprenticing at. This does not mean that I will have a 100% steady paycheck, but it does allow me to continue working towards what I want for the rest of my life.
Passion needs to come before anything else on your life. If it makes you happy, do it! You only have so much time.